Suzie Baby got the memo about living life on life's terms. I did not. Well, I probably got it but it must have been on the back of a cocktail napkin that I used to sit my wine glass on at a bar in San Francisco. I always had to take the longer, harder, more difficult way. Which in my head was the more exciting... more adventurous route of life.

Selfish? What’s selfish is that you think it has anything to do with you or anyone else for that matter. They didn't take your life. They took their own life. You didn't catch the disease of addiction from them. They suffered from the disease. This has nothing to do with you. 

I can't pray for everything wrong in this world. So, what I do is ask God to break my heart for what breaks His. And nothing breaks my heart more than people living and dying addicted to drugs and alcohol. And I know it breaks God's heart too. That includes drug dealers.

God's will wasn't for my brother to take drugs, overdose and die. God's will wasn't for me to be an alcoholic. But what God's will is for me...is to use my pain and my struggles to help others.

There is not a drink or drug, legal or illegal, that will be the answer to your problems. There is not a drink or drug that can give your life meaning. You're not drinking and drugging because you have a shitty life. You have a shitty life because you are drinking and drugging.